I Found Another Way
Unforced Movement
Moving without trying to improve anything.
I went out knowing the trailhead would still be closed.
It’s a holiday. Sunday.
No one working.
I thought there might be a way around it.
There wasn’t.
I stood there for a while.
Longer than I needed to.
Looking at the fencing.
Feeling like it wasn’t fair.
Wondering what they were doing to my trailhead.
How they could just close it off.
I caught myself.
It isn’t mine.
I stayed there a little longer anyway.
Then I turned.
I thought about walking up to the other open entrance.
Instead, I went the other direction.
A path we noticed a few days ago.
It runs along a deep cut in the ground.
You can tell water moves through it from large cement pipes under the street.
But it was dry.
No sign of water.
I wasn’t sure when it had last been there.
I went down into it.
Trees grew up from the bottom.
On the other side, fences lined the backyards of houses.
Dogs came running down toward me.
Barking.
When I said hi, they stopped.
Turned.
Went back up the yard.
I kept walking.
At one point, I looked up.
The sky was a bright, almost artificial blue.
Like something I would use in a drawing.
Then I caught my toe on something small.
A stem in the path.
I didn’t fall.
But it was enough.
I started watching my steps more closely.
Looking down.
The path curved.
Then it started to rise.
I realized it connected back up on the other side.
Different houses.
Different fences.
It felt like something new.
Something I hadn’t used before.
I felt a small kind of excitement.
Like I had found something.
No bikes passing.
Just dogs behind fences.
And small things in the path you could miss if you weren’t looking.
It felt like a place I could come back to.
Not mine.
But close enough.